I don't know why but yesterday at work I started feeling pretty shitty. Kinda dizzy and a bit light headed. Because of this I ended up getting a slice of pizza for lunch. This slice of pizza worked it's magic and made me feel good again. Kinda weird!
That's not really the bad part though. Carleigh and I decided to go see our friend Katie in Legally Blonde last night. We were running pretty late and needed a quick dinner and it just so happened that there was a Chinese buffet right nest to the theatre. This freakin Buffet was jacked! So much delicious food, one of the best I've been to in a while. I threw in the towel and skipped all healthy options and went straight for my fried rice and general tso's... I ate like a pig. A little silver lining though; I felt bad about it. Never before have I had such a guilt trip about eating like I used to eat all the time. I figure this is a good step, finally realizing that this kind of behavior is terrible for me.
Today was a different story. I ate 2 eggs for breakfast, got a subway 6inch 6 grams of fat sandwich for lunch, and just had a stuffed chicken breast with some mushroom risotto for dinner. In between I had some melon and I am working on my second gallon of water of the day! I also kicked my ass at the gym and did a sit load of laundry.
After all of that I feel great! I honestly haven't had a full day of accomplished things in a long time. This is a good start to where I need to be.
Hi Bobby!
ReplyDeleteBeing the FB lurker that I am, I simply had to start reading your blog when I saw Carleigh post it :) I know we've only met once at Paul and Kellys' wedding,perhaps while singing showtunes on the deck of the reception, but I am 100% supporting you on your journey as well!!! I too have been "fighting the good fight" for a little over 3 years now and while there are some days I want to give up and drive to Dairy Queen, the end result is SO SO SO worth it!! I give you a ton of credit for even taking the first step. That is always the hardest and most terrifying. I'm still learning daily what I can and can't do in terms of eating, exercising, restructuring my habits, etc. It does get easier though. I promise!!
If I've learned anything from my own adventures in weight loss, it's that you need to be kind to yourself above all!! Forgive yourself for the minor slips and stumbles (I personally love the phrase "if you break one egg, it doesn't mean you then throw the rest of the carton on the floor"), listen to your body, don't beat yourself up for some time off from workouts or a "bad" food day and let people help and guide you! A lot of this is probably common sense, but support has seriously carried me thru about 60% of my success (well that and my trainer forcing me to lunge across parking lots ;) )
I'm sending only the best wishes and most positive energy your way!! Celebrate every victory whether it's number-related or not. I"m rooting for you :) :)
All the best,
Alaina :)